Renewing My Vision: A New Year's Resolve

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The year 2017 was many things for me. I traveled on my own, attended a life-changing writing workshop, met some amazing people, and found somewhat of a groove in freelance writing. I also found a connection that has, and may in the future, contain all these things, helping me to develop the skills I choose to sharpen as a part of my vision for the future and this year to come.

Halfway through the year, I found myself involved with a wonderful group of people here at VisionAware, the VisionAware peers. I saw myself having a voice and a say on things that really matter. I became "one of them," a VisionAware peer, and I am determined on renewing my vision for what I want my life to look like for 2018, that I want to make a difference in the months ahead.

Choosing a Word for the Year

I am not one for hard and fast rules of New Year’s resolutions. I believe in cultivating a lifestyle and a way of daily living in the now, all while creating a strong idea of what the future could be. I have chosen a word for the year, "stoker," and I plan to repeat this action in the most positive of ways.

What the Term "Stoker" Means to Me

Through VisionAware and other avenues, I want to stir things up, to speak up, on the things that matter, those issues that make a difference in people’s lives. This will most definitely include my regular involvement with the Canadian Federation of the Blind as well, here in my home country of Canada. I believe being involved, in both countries, will improve my perspective and help me share my own vision for what people without literal vision are capable of.

It's still a good thing to have a fresh perspective as a new year dawns. It may sometimes feel arbitrary, this new year stuff, but it matters. Humans like going along with things, on a timeline or with a sign from something. A time of year and a brand new year are perfect examples of that.

We all may choose to focus on renewing our vision for our lives, but the word "vision," can be literal or figurative, in meaning and especially for anyone who has learned not to take our literal vision for granted. The second meaning of the word stems from that appreciation.

Waiting to Find Out My Eye Health

I’d planned to visit my retinal specialist for my routine checkup near the end of last year. I was preparing myself for a clean bill of eye health, though that isn’t what worried me. My vision has been worsening, and I was dreading hearing that there is something going on, something to see in my examination, but even more worried if there wasn’t.

Suddenly, I was forced to bear this uncertainty for a few months more when his office phoned and informed me the appointment would need to be pushed back to January. I had no choice but to keep waiting for the next bad eye day, when everything felt even more blurry than usual and my one, right, real eye of the pair felt tired, even with my eyelids closed tight.

Now that January and 2018 are here, the appointment, unless canceled again, is set to happen in only a few more weeks. It’s then when I will find out if there is anything more to be said, to be done, or if I am heading toward less and less remaining vision, whether I like it or not. The prospect of this reality looms before me in this first month of the new year.

Determined to Create a Vision for My Life

So, again, I am facing a future with disappearing vision. I am all the more determined to create a vision for my life, renewing what that is for myself, what that might look like by the eventual dawning of 2019.

A vision, a renewal of that vision, what might that look like for others? I think about that as often as I think of my own. It is important if you cannot have one that you work even harder to have the other or so I’ve found to be true.

helen keller petting dog with quote The keeness of our vision depends not on how much we can see but on how much we feel

Helen Keller once said, "The only thing worse than being blind is having sight but no vision." The renewing of my vision for 2018 is always there, daily and in front or in the back of my mind, as I learn, again, how to live and accept the reality of living with less of one and perhaps a much greater responsibility to go forward with the other. A clearer vision is indeed possible when sight is lost throughout life. I am simply one example of such living and set to become a stoker.

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Re: Renewing My Vision: A New Year's Resolve

Hi Kerry, I really appreciate you sharing your vision of the possible and support your journey in any way I can. I love January, it has so much potential and like the opening of a flower, promises growth and blossoming. I wish you well on your next eye examination and trust that you will keep stoking the fire to ignite your gifts that do make a difference in the world with your ability to help others. Thank you for this article and for sharing your vision.

Re: Renewing My Vision: A New Year's Resolve

There is another meaning for the word Stoker, it is the person who takes the rear seat on a tandem bicycle the rider on the front seat is the pilot the Stoker is there to help lend their strength and the power of their own muscles. So although we sometimes may have to depend on someone else to ensure we stay on the road, we can’t be the driving force behind that pilot. My word for 2018 is perseverance. It is a dark time for democracy in my country. I have many challenges in my personal life, I have many on finished tasks ahead. So this year I will persevere. I will carry-on even when I feel I am not big enough, strong enough, brave enough. I will keep my shoulder to the wheel even when I do not feel strong enough to take another step. I’ll take that step sometimes this is what we need to do in order to come out on the other side and achieve her goals

Re: Renewing My Vision: A New Year's Resolve

Kerry, I am so glad that you have joined our team as a peer. Like Maribel I am here to support you in your journey as well. I am posting my comment late as it is February already, so not sure if your eye appointment has happened. But I hope if it did that things went well.

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